Check out the beautiful words on fear and anxiety from Kerri Lowe, my tour mate at the end of the month. Our tour is mentioned quite a bit, and what she has to say is truly inspiring:
I almost cancelled.
Shortly after I booked the upcoming tour, I started having panic attacks in the middle of the night. Waking up paralyzed that I had gotten myself into something so incredibly stupid that I might just need to go ahead and let everyone down right now and cancel, rather than let everyone down in person when my throat closes up and I can’t do the thing that I’m supposed to do. Sing.
Because the person who books all those shows and says “Yes, I’ll go on tour with you! What a great idea!” is not the same person that wakes up with extreme anxiety and vocal tension on the day of a show and can’t explain why.
And I ask myself, “Why do I keep doing this?” “Why do I keep myself through this?”
And the answer is that I can’t give up.
I’ve given up on the idea of being famous.
I’ve given up the idea of being a touring musician.
I’ve given up the idea that I’ll wake up one day having gone back in time so that I never had this pain.
But I haven’t given up on my right to express myself in the way that I want to express myself – freely and without hesitation. I haven’t given up the fact that, once I get up there, I feel better onstage than I do off of it. I haven’t given up on my grit and my gumption to reach a place where physical, mental, and emotional stress are things I used to do to myself, are ways I used to react to my surroundings and insecurities.
The journey is just beginning, folks. I’m a girl living gumptiously making art that heals for myself and for you all. And I want to invite you to few upcoming performances that will include storytelling, poetry, andsong. (Another way I’m trying to express all of myself rather than just parts of myself.)”
So there it is. Come on out to our shows, NYC, NC and world (YES, world!- we have an online show on the 19th of April, happening on concert window! Tune in here.)
Lots of love,